You know it's there. You put the phone down anyway. Barthes wrote about the one who waits — how waiting is never neutral, how it transforms the person doing it. He was thinking about lovers. He might as well have been thinking about this. The ten seconds before you
I went out for two hours. I came back after five. Somewhere between the first picante and the third round of food, I forgot I had a blog to write. I have written every day for 42 days. I was not going to let good conversation be the thing that
She hears the dogs before she hears the car. They live on the abandoned property at the end of the lane and they have decided, without being asked, to take responsibility for the silence. Before that, birds. Not the ones there used to be — the singing ones, who arrived at
The first cup is optimistic. The second cup knows better. You make it anyway. Not because the day has turned around. Or something shifted or clicked or resolved itself quietly while you weren't looking. The day is exactly what it was. You are exactly where you were. Kettle.
This afternoon I was pricing the furniture. Not all of it. Thirty-two pieces. The deck is called A Life in Objects and it is exactly what it sounds like — photographs, provenance, a short paragraph on each. Mahendra Doshi. Charcoal Project. Antique Dealers. The Edwardian Cabinet and the Gothic altar are
The ego is exhausting. It never leaves. It comments on everything. It keeps score, builds cases, rehearses conversations that will never happen. It is the noisiest room you will ever live in. And yet. That room exists only because something in you can hear it. The noise is not the
There is a tree I pass sometimes. Standing at a junction — noise, pollution, dust, the daily assault of a city that doesn't notice it's there. No canopy above it. No forest around it. Just concrete breaking its roots and exhaust filling the space where air should
I got off a call with a friend yesterday. He'd been told this year would be hard. And it is, he said. It really is. I put the phone down and opened YouTube. The first video waiting for me: a numerologist explaining why 2026 is a year of
Pick one up. Really hold it. Hard enough to have survived the sea, the sand, the long journey to your hand. Fragile enough that you instinctively tighten your grip, then loosen it. Both things are true. And they come from the same source. A shell is not built. It is
We spend so much of our lives preparing. Bracing, really. We call it planning, but underneath it is the quiet, exhausting work of making sure nothing catches us off guard. And then something does. Not the dramatic kind. Not the kind that undoes you. The kind that arrives, like a
On 12 June 2010, in Houston, Texas, a researcher named Brené Brown walked onto a small local stage and said something the world had been waiting to hear. That vulnerability was not weakness. That to be seen — deeply, vulnerably seen, was the birthplace of love, belonging, joy. The world agreed.
There is a yellow fountain pen that lives on my desk. A Sailor. I bought it in an airport. Saw the colour. Felt the nib. That was that. No deliberation. Just recognition. I use it only for my journal. Which means I use it only for myself. A few times